[Note: post written on October 6, but published on November 20]
Well so much for my intention to "write about the new baby each week"! If the past two weeks are any indication this baby is going to be here before I even get my head around the fact that I'm pregnant. I remember with Lily - how the MINUTE I peed on that stick I felt SOOOO pregnant. I remember being shattered when at one of my early appointments my OB said something like "oh honey, but you're hardly pregnant yet!" in response to some crazy question/concern of mine. Well this last week I was getting ready for my 1st OB appointment and I dutifully went out and bought a notebook - in which to record questions and stats from each appointment - just like I did for Lily. I sat down the night before to write down any questions I had and I thought "hmmm, but really, I'm hardly even pregnant!" Wow - big difference between the two, huh?
I guess part of it is that I'm still nowhere near as sick as I was with Lily. I don't even have a serious food aversion like I did the first time. My appetite isn't quite as good, but it's not bad either. I really didn't feel like eating shrimp in my fried rice the other night, but had no problem eating everything else on the table! I'm pretty sure that by 7 weeks with Lily I was nearly in tears in the mornings wondering how I was going to get through another day feeling nauseous. Now, I'm just tired a lot - tired and wondering WHY my clothes are already not fitting.
So that's something else I have to do - get out the maternity clothes. I literally have 2 pairs of sweat-pants that I'm wearing whenever I'm not at work. Nearly everything else is uncomfortably tight. Hello?? I've heard that you just sort of "pop out" the second time around. Something about your uterus "remembering what to do" - oh that and the fact that I have NO abdominal muscles to speak of in the way this time. But man, I feel chunky - and come on! I'm barely pregnant! :)
Well to convince you all -and myself - here's a pic from our first ultrasound - me and the new baby.
Wow new baby, baby Wong #2. Hmmmm maybe we need a code-name.... although I have to be careful - my friends liked their code-name so much it stuck! So we'd better follow their lead and pick a good one, just in case. We got our first measurements too: 6.8mm long with a heart rate of 118 bpm. Of course I couldn't control myself and am already playing the comparison game. Lily was 8mm and had a heart rate of 133 bpm at around the same time. At first I was all, 118? isn't that low. But Dr. Google (and the ultrasound tech) assured me it's well within normal range - so yay.
Just in case I'm communicating all ambivalence here and no excitement - i AM excited, thrilled, all that. I guess I just don't have the resources to be totally self-absorbed about it like the first time around. So it still feels kind of - unreal. Well that and the lack of feeling like total crap. I keep waiting for the other (first?) shoe to drop here. My Mom says I must be having a boy - what with all the totally different symptoms (lack of nausea, awful skin). But she thought I was having a boy the firs time around, so I'm not sure what to do with her predictions!